Galuh Van Bemmelen

 I'm actually in a low mood today. Yes, it's normal.. worldly problems, where we live will not be separated from suffering. But I've decided, no matter what problems I face, I have to keep things as they are. I have to keep going with my daily routine. I didn't want trouble to overwhelm me, nor decide I should act this way or that. Problems may remain problems, but I have to keep waking up, I have to keep bathing, eating and drinking water.

I found an interesting book title on Google Books, the title is "Art makes life easier". I read some of the free pages, and was intrigued. I will soon find the full version and read it mindfully. I need to be kept aware.

Today I'm really in a bad mood.

I'm in a bad mood because of some human behavior which, in my opinion, is very unpleasant.

Human. Why are some of them so heartless?

I sometimes feel like I've become a good person. Helping them through their hardships, but what do I get in return?

The reply was..Unpleasant treatment.

They seem to think I've never done good/helped them before.

They do as they please. Sometimes without thinking about my feelings.

Meanwhile, I kept thinking about how someone would feel if I wanted to do something bad to them. I hate this "sensitive kindness feeling"

Sometimes I feel like I want to get away from all humans with their hypocritical nature.

In my life I have only met a few good people who are truly sincere.

The rest are annoying people, only come when they need help, ungrateful people.

Human. Can I live without their interference? I mean not all humans from all aspect of life. But humans who always come only when they need my help, I want to stay away from people like this.

I don't know. It just feels so tired with humans.

I just love my cats ritght now.

They seem genuinely in love with me, well, maybe just begging for food all the time.

I want to stop being a good person for a while and care a lot about other people. Because there are times when I need them, they seem don't care at all. Proud. Meanwhile, when they are in trouble or in need, I openly or secretly look for solutions. It's a very bad trait.

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Solo, 5 Juni 2021

Hari ini akhirnya kesampaian juga ngajak ibu ane dan Gavriel - keponakan ane - untuk wisata pantai sekaligus kuliner ke Pantai Depok, Jogja. Well, tidak dipungkiri setiap mendengar kata "Pantai Depok", pasti yang kepikiran utama itu seafood-nya yang melegenda itu. Dimana kita bisa belanja sendiri seafood mentah di pasar, kemudian 'memasakannya' di warung-warung yang banyak sekali berjajar di tepi Pantai Depok dengan harga yang cukup terjangkau. Selain masakin seafood kita, mereka juga bisa memberi pelengkap seperti tumis kangkung, sambel, dan es degan yang menyegarkan. 

Kami berangkat dari Solo sekitar jam 7 pagi, setelah sebelumnya sarapan soto seger dulu di deket rumah. Perjalanan dari Solo ke Jogja berjalan cukup lancar, walau terdapat sedikit kemacetan di beberapa titik. Yahhh...memang jalan Solo-Jogja itu terkenal banget karena banyak lampu merahnya. Perjalanan dari Jogja ke Parangtritis juga tidak kalah bersaing, banyak titik kemacetan juga disana sini. Bahkan ane sempet salah jalan, niatnya dari Kota Jogja ngarah ke selatan, ini malah ngarah ke barat. Akhirnya puter balik biarpun udah jauh-jauh melewati ringroad. Akhrinya kami sampai di Pantai Depok setelah 3,5 jam perjalanan. Jauhnyooooo...

Sampai Pantai Depok, kami segera menuju ke pasar ikan & seafood di bagian belakang. Ibu ane langsung beraksi membeli 1 kg kepiting mentah dan 1 kg udang. Setelahnya kami sebenarnya hendak menuju tukang masak langganan yang namanya "Bu Ratmi", namun ternyata hari itu warung Bu Ratmi lagi tutup karena beliau lagi ada acara. Akhirnya diantarkan seorang joki masak, kami dipilihkan warung di ujung, yang view-nya langsung ke Pantai.

Segera ibu ane minta dimasakkan Kepiting Asam Manis dan Udang Bakar. Selain itu juga pesan tumis kangkung, dan es degan. Mantaapp.. Warung terlihat agak sepi hari itu. Hanya terdapat 1 keluarga yang terlihat selain kami. Karena saat itu masih hari biasa.

Menunggu agak lama, makanan akhirnya dataaang. Mantaap! Aku lupa foto kepitingnya hehe, tapi ini ada foto udangnya. Gavriel terlihat menikmati banget pemandangan pantai, mungkin karena udah cukup lama juga dia nggak main jauh dari Solo.